30 March 2006



MIKA NAKASHIMA + CRY NO MORE
Guess what I'll be hunting FOR this week?
GUYS!?.. Of course NOT, silly (thats an on-going process btw)
It's MIKA-chan's latest bumbum! I'm gonna grab her off the shelf.
(that is, provided TowerRecords imported it from Nippon)
Mika-chan! Dai-suki desu ne!

oh will this loneliness
be over one day?

I don't wanna cry no more
I don't wanna cry cry cry
How much longer will it last
I don't wanna cry cry cry

How much longer will it last baby
I just wanna cry cry cry
I don't wanna cry no more
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry

Don't you Just Love her? I do..
Thursday, March 30, 2006

Don't you Just Love her? I do..

Getting to a specific site at home (in my own room somemore *basket*) is plain hard. As I refrained myself from leaving any darn trace of URL visited in the address panel (will explain WHY next time), I decided to google the site up and just let the links do the magic for me. And so, I typed.. press search.. search result page comes out... and voila.. the right link I'm looking for..*sniggers*... *click on the link*... *BLINK BLINK*; paused for a second - return to the search result page..

WAIT a MINUTE! I think I saw something... Some familiar names in one of those many links on the search result page. Isn't that ABCD? (not nice laa to reveal the name) What's his site gotta do with the subject(keyword) I'm googling up?.. it couldn't be..could it?.. IT IS! OMFG! LMAO! Ho ho ho... small world.

And its ironic cause' I stumbled upon his site only yesterday - for the first time. And now I'm seeing it again! - only to retrieve MORE infos... oo lala. I'm busybody alrite. Lolz.

Some words for myself: I'm not alone afterall.. apparently. CHEERs!
Irony strikes.. Whoa.. small world!
Thursday, March 30, 2006

Irony strikes.. Whoa.. small world!

25 March 2006

Latest addition to my already-quite-alot-nicknames:

Kenknee Chaiglewatts

HOW random!
I kinda like it though. Odd and Strange enough - yet it does replicates my identity. Yah.. Odd enough. Strange enough. JUST like moi... muah hahaha *PpPpPpP

I have meta4 to thank for.. although I don't really know where he sourced it from (or perhaps, he came up with it, which I'm not surprised ya' know if that's the case.. that demented potent creative mind of his!).

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Recently noticed a trait in the people around me. Same questions asked. I don't know what gives. I've been repeating myself over and over again. So, here's goes... for those of you who's also keen to find out / for those of you who're thinking of asking me (*so DON'T!)

Top 5 FAQs. Here's my answers:

Are you seeing anyone? Potentials?
No... I set my criteria pretty high you see.

Need me introduce someone to you?
Uhh.. No... Please don't. Thanks but no thanks

Hows everything with you and your family?
Like dat-loo.

You have a blog?
Yes. Search for it yourself.

You look sad. Are you okay?
I'm always SAD - Single. Available. Desperate (well... maybe not THAT desperate YET-laa but you get my point~ boo hooo~!! *sobs*). Nevertheless I'm okay.

I rest my case. Thank you.
p/s : the previous post is rather disturbing - yes... but, thats life! *sigh*
Patience is of the essence
Saturday, March 25, 2006

Patience is of the essence

20 March 2006

I hope to move out.
Just somewhere away from home.
It doesn't matter where.
It doesn't matter who I'd be living with.
Doesn't matter if I'd be doing fine.
I just want to get out of this place, away from the people.
No, its not even about the people.
Its away from frustration.
Its about the way we work things out.
And we're not working anything out.
Its always back to square one.
And thats what pisses me off.
Perhaps you'd never understand why.
I don't need you to.
I don't intend to tell you my reason either.
I need a space.
No, I don't have any.
All I need is just some privacy.
And I know I wouldn't be getting any.
Being the discreet one at home, I don't have my say of words.
I'm always the middle person.
I hate to be one.
I'm fed up with the way people deal with each another.
I'm fed up with myself.
I'm sick with this place.
Sick.. no, thats not even the right word.
But its not 'upset, disappointed' either.
I hate it when you kept comparing us with others.
I hate it when you places 'hope' on me.
I'm never your 'hope'.
I don't want to be your 'hope'.
Someday, I'd disappoint you.
Someday, I'd go against your will.
In fact, its already happening.
Enough, carrying the nice role at home.
I don't like it at all.
Its an ugly mask I put on.
If I have a choice...
I'd rather not put so much effort.
I'd rather not make it 8 years ago.
I'd rather...
That's how bad things are.
I noticed I am changing.
Yes, I know you noticed too.
Not my intention to do so.
Situation at home forces me to.
Don't be surprised if I'd walk out someday.
Don't be..
Just let me rant for the night..
Monday, March 20, 2006

Just let me rant for the night..

19 March 2006

At some point of life, we'll come to meeting someone who, being somewhat like a fortune teller, will tell you all about yourself, the past, the future, forewarning the prediction of life he/she sees in you, your spiritual entity, the emotional/physical role you're in; consciously/sub-consciously. Unless, you requested for the 'reading' yourself, I don't see why you must oblige to his/her statements and letting them tell YOU what you ought to be doing.. Afterall, its your call.

Nevertheless, whether you like it or not, your brain will digest every single word uttered from his/her lips.. unless you stop them from going on and on about every inch of your body, mind and soul (eg: hey I appreciate you sharing your X-Men 'gift' with us but thanks but no thanks) OR, you can just set your ears to mute. Yes, you may opt to ignore them, but I reckon' its not gonna help much. Some people tends to be a bit slower than we thought and thus a hint or two wouldn't make any difference.

Just bear in mind that you shouldn't let some simple few liners get into your head - good or bad. Take everyday as an individual life and live the max out of it. Why let the predictions of your future (from some unlicensed fortune teller) troubles you? *not as though its a 100% guranteed thingy* Keep your feet on the ground and march forward. Tomorrow will come.. there isn't any need for you to ponder any futher than today. If there's anything you should worry about, its how you ought to enjoy yourself this very minute!
I'll pave my own future. Thanks!
Sunday, March 19, 2006

I'll pave my own future. Thanks!

13 March 2006

Had a long day! Plenty of errands to do. Took a day's leave. Went for my medical checkup and hoo-boy*, I can't believe this~ With that huge amount of patients (like way far more than usual), theres only one(1) GP available? What on earth? I pity those parent who look half-dead sitting on the sofa and waiting for their child's number while the brats were having fun in that 'kids zone' area. *Yippee..yayy... Zzz Zz....

And to make things worse, it wasn't quite a smooth journey today =( I experience nausea and my stomach has been acting rather weird since early in the morning. So there isn't any breakfast nor lunch - meal skipped! Of all the days! - just when I need to be extremely 'healthy', 'active' and 'endowed with miraculous strength' to cheat the medical report

Hope I'd feel better tomorrow =( ... nausea~ nausea~ nausea~

Nevertheless, I still manage to clear quite a number of things today despite the tight hours (and the darn weird feeling in my stomach). With the lump sum of bills and more bills to juggle around this month, moth is officially broke .... with immediate effect!! All donations welcomed. Those who owes me money, you leave me no choice but to increase my interest rate to another 30% =p (*as if there's any interest rate to speak of at the beginning...bah!)

*Oh btw, the checkup went well =)
Sounds like gastric? Hmm....
Monday, March 13, 2006

Sounds like gastric? Hmm....

12 March 2006

The proper way for a man to do it is to wait at the taxi stand and scratch your body as though someone ditches you with a bag of itchy powder. SCRATCH like there's no tomorrow while waiting for available taxis around. Slowly scratch your way up revealing ur beautiful fatteningly-huge stomach, your nipples, then slowly scratch all the way down to your buttocks and leave your already-loosen-jeans go down by another few centimeters revealing another few strands of hairs from you-know-where. OMFG! On top of that, do remember to scratch yourself in front of two lil' girls (preferably your daughters) acting like a real true paedophile (and maybe flasher too)~! Finally, get on a taxi and kiss your as* goodbye!

Thats what me and bliss encountered while having our cuppa frappies and iced tea at Starbucks today. The taxi stand is only a few meters away from where we sat. We went speechless - totally. What disturbs me is not about the man himself. Its what he did in front of the two(2) lil' girls.. I mean, aww shoots c'mon~ what a 'decent' scene to do in the public. I told bliss I'm not surprised if he'd went all the way down, pull off his pants and continue scratching.

Our lovely citizens a.k.a township neighbours (apparently)... bravo! Thanks for sharing with us the new method to stop a taxi instead of the mundane hand wave *wave wave*.
You don't wave your hand for Taxis
Sunday, March 12, 2006

You don't wave your hand for Taxis

11 March 2006

Yes! I realize I haven't been blogging for quite some time now - srenae dear... please be a bit patient laa! I've been doing alot of 'nothing' over the past 1 week. It seems as though I've been busy with alot of stuffs lately but hell, I can't recall a single thing. Hence.. doing alot of 'nothing'.

I was with bliss today when drew called her to go 'jalan jalan' at KLCC. Surprisingly, there's a sale going on. I didnt get anything today - real disappointed (*upset too) - I mean you see your friends in bags and me....empty handed? WTF? I'm financially restricted cause' I'm in need of 'ka-ching ka-ching' to pull off alot of 'debts' this month especially the renewal of road tax and car insurance.. and personal insurance and credit cards and I need to f*cking renew my driving license too... and before you know it.. I received an invoice to renew some domain name. Snosh gosh!.. a whole big plate of Caesar salad thrown at me. *SPLAT*

So, yea... thats what kept me away from buying all those *nice* shirts (and jackets and bags and pants and fellow underwears too) *grins*. On the bright side, I am glad to see drew finally re-vogue his wardrobe..*laugh laugh laugh*, hey! apparently he looks great in all else other than T-shirts (which you'd see him in, 98.8725% of the time!). I had fun persuading him to try on a few shirts and getting (buying) them! Afterall, like I've always said, you gotta pamper yourself once in a while.. need not think of the consequences hey! *you always have your payslip awaiting at the end of the month* hehehe..

But HEY! I was supposed to be on my swimming lesson with bliss today! Darn drew, you spoiled my plan! AND with the stupid weather *rain rain rain* these days, its really looking bad. I doubt I can start swimming anytime now. Sigh....bliss, please do lookout for the weather forecast!

By the way, happy birthday to you, cynikeel! Being 25 isn't that bad - its halfway towards 30 - and 30s are cool. Thats when you get real manly and look at that matured gesture you portrayed and carried out! *hehehe* Don't worry, I'd be catching up with you in 3 months time from now, lolz. I hope you and CF are doing good. Don't worry about a thing. Ups and downs are common things to keep a healthy relationship running. Speaking of relationships... ahh well, 'some' news strucked on Friday. Nothing much to comment on, really, except.. we'd always be here if you need a listener and do move on *charlie! .... and you too ms. mcD-for-supper!

Was about to wrap up when lemon showed(sent) me the trailer for FF XII's Intro (featuring Angela Aki's Kiss me Goodbye). Like the theme song alot. Alot of reminiscent from FF X but heck, lets not let that spoil a good new FF world epic. For those who've seen the video - What's with wedding scene CG and FF lately? Those were the days when the lead characters (usually a couple) hold hands, kisses but now... a wedding scene? LMAO!! I wonder what's next?...
5 days blog-in-1
Saturday, March 11, 2006

5 days blog-in-1

06 March 2006

1 week free trial (unlimited session and course) at True Fitness...
1 week free trial + 1 Training session at California Fitness...

Hmm.. should I, shouldn't I ? Nahh... don't have time! As I was telling Piggey (name altered due to privacy reason) from True Fitness (thanks for calling and the pushy effort) ... nope.. I gotta work 48 hours per day, I just don't have the time to 'visit' a gym. And its okay, don't bother calling me in a week's time, cause' ultimately I know I won't nod my head and agree to collect the free passes from you. Blurgh... I do have a passion to workout, but just doesn't wanna make any effort. *SLAPs myself.

I'm fine with Yoga though. I'd sign up for a Yoga class already if its not for the YEARLY one(1) lump sum of course fee that I have to pay (vomit out) upon registration! What on Earth!? I'm just earning enough peanuts to keep myself.... contented in the most basic pleasure of life!

I've been spending alot these days, it feels 'rawther' insecure (Oh yes, I need money to feel secure, ....don't you?). *Sniggers*

The weather's f*cking hot and humid its turning me cuckoo. BAa-KA no tenki desu ne!
The Steel vs. The Mat
Monday, March 06, 2006

The Steel vs. The Mat

05 March 2006

This is what I'm looking for on a weekend. Plenty of things to do, and best of all, you don't have to think twice about doing it. Here I am, trying to make the most out of my Saturday (and Sunday too, I hope)

1300 hrs - An unofficial outing with colleagues- kawaii-chan, qiqi and ychian - are fun, though short, but I'm delighted with the plan. We went Shogun (japanese buffet restaurant) at 1U for lunch. Its an opportunity to see the other side of our 'fanatical' co-mates. Its even better cause' its not a formal occassion (like a company thingy) and I can easily talk things out without thinking twice about any dumb consequences that follows. Then again, I think the ultimate factor that measures are the people I'm hanging out with. =)

1500 hrs - I decided to shop abit myself while waiting for yunko. I knew there's a music store around the corner but I just couldn't find it. It's not very often that I have my mind set on a particular CD and wanted to get it so badly; I've been wanting to get it since last year, but I can't find it anywhere. So there, I spent a good 1 - 1.5 hours looking for it - now HOW big can the NEW WING of 1U be? I took a break, had a drink, and before I knew it, I stumbled in - 'Rock Corner'. Something tells me that I'm bound to find something I want here. Kept my eyes opened. OMFG! *blink *blink - I got my Robert Downey Jr's 'The Futurist'. Item on the list - *Checked =)

1800 hrs - Pre-swimming plan with bliss and yunko were cancelled - but we found a perfect plan B. I had my hair dyed - deep purple. Naturally, yunko dyed hers as well, same colour - she is afterall my sweetpea hey! (we have bliss - our temporary stylist - to thank for). Another item on the list - *Checked =)

2200 hrs - BBQ session at moi place. Not too bad. Am glad everyone turned up. Had good chat, good food, good drink. Had a real good 'Honey melon and sago' dessert too (we have bliss(again) to thank for). =)

Autumn moth woke up at 1030 hrs today. Despite only a mere seven(7) hours sleep after the BBQ, I felt thoroughly refreshed! Hope Sunday turns out just as fun and meaningful!
I like my Saturday
Sunday, March 05, 2006

I like my Saturday

02 March 2006

My short term memory loss are getting worse. I'm not kidding - I'm one(1) step closer to vs. a goldfish! It's quite apparent that I'm having problem updating my diary these days. Just can't seem to recall the slightest thing I did, saw and/or heard. Obviously, I'm not kidding when I said I'm getting old - it carries the fact that I'm supremely absent-minded. I don't acknowledge the fact but it is indeed happening... and its getting bad, darn it!

Little do I know that all post-cancer/chemotherapy patients do suffer from memory loss (*Note: I've decided NOT to link it up to any article(s) written by medical professionals due to personal reason). Frankly speaking, I have already lost most of my 'teen-hoods' (when I'm still in my secondary school year), everything seems close to blank. Surely I remember which subjects I took, how I fare in my exams.. but everything else is just plain vague. It sounds absurd - yes. Doctors had been telling me 'its all in the head' - yes. Then what gives?

It troubles me now because it has been interfering with my work lately (and my social life too, but that's not too bad aside from calling my friends the wrong name, and figuring out if I've sent my sms-es out to my friends *sigh) and I can't really keep my mind focused. Memory fogs every now and then.. I can hardly remember where and how to proceed with my work or if I've replaced the files and folders and oh-what-the-fu*k!

Moreover, I'm in the creative field. How could I keep up with my work if such condition persist? *eyeballs rolling*. Bear with me, if I lost track. Remind me, if I've forgotten. (I've got enough burden and commitment to think about in my life - I don't need another one *sheesh*)

I really hope its just me - perhaps lack of exercise and what not other excuses. Lend me a helping hand just in case I forgot my way home =P. Well, its not gonna be any sooner.. but I reckon' it will come one(1) day. Thanks dear..(in advanced). I love myself. I love you and you who smiles back at me.

.......and world peace~! ^^
All I can do is SMILE~
Thursday, March 02, 2006

All I can do is SMILE~