30 November 2006

He did it again. I don't understand. He's always at it. He's really good with spoiling everyone's mood and plan at the wrong time, wrong day... or is it 'right' time 'right' day? I can't tell the difference anymore. The point is, he ruined it, again.

I can't help but say its definitely more than just a 'coincidence', that for every important dates in the family, he's bound to come up with something, so unexpected that would turn the party off. There must be something about his birthtime that clashes with ours. Either that, or its just destined that we were to succumb to the 'painful disorder'.

At 40, he thinks like a 10
At 50, he acts like a 10
At 60, he is no different from a 10, worse even...

Sigh...

If only he'd be much more understanding. If only he knows how to take good care of himself. If only he'd listen. If only he'd perceive. If only he'd see. If only he'd stop behaving like a 10 year old. If and if only... (the list can go on and on)

There goes the supposedly-lovely family dinner on Mom's birthday. (speechless)
Oops,
Thursday, November 30, 2006

Oops,

27 November 2006

唉﹗﹗。。。。

真的不得不嘆息。。。。。

所謂好的設計也有不中用的時候~
原來時尚的﹐不一定懂得時尚
給予潮流的﹐也不見得能接受新事物

還真複雜呀。
難道社會人士的眼光真的和設計師差那麼遠嗎﹗?
彼此的口味真的差那麼多嗎﹗?

唉。。。

還說什麼‘想跨越國際市場’。 屁﹗

這麼簡單的道理也不懂
真的看不過眼 。 哼﹗
開玩笑的吧?
Monday, November 27, 2006

開玩笑的吧?

26 November 2006

Layer ONE: On the Outside
Name: kNy -lor (No, 'lor' is not the surname)
Birth Date: 20th June
Current Status: Meh status sinnn ?
Eye color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown... -guar
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: of Castor and Pollux, the Gemini

Layer TWO: On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fears: Staircase! *wait for me*
Your Weakness: alot... alot... alot...
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni with lotsa cheese and mushrooms

Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Set alarm to snooze sinn...
Your Bedtime: Depends. 12am - 2am
Your most missed memory: College days with the GDs

Layer FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McD's . Luv thy nuggets
Single or group dates: Single (no particular reason)
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate! *thinks vanilla fondue... eww*
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

Layer FIVE: Do you
Smoke: Hell yeah! Second hand smoker that is!
Curse: What the fwakk?
Take a shower: *sniff *sniff.. Erm,..
Have a crush: Nawhh... Not at the moment, nosy!
Think you've been in love: Not really *sobs*. Can't say its 'love'
Go to school: Eh.. used to, not anymore
Want to get married: No.. not very likely
Believe in yourself: Yepz, I have to and I should
Think you're a health freak: I'm a FREAK!!

Layer SIX: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Ye..yYess..*tipsy*
Gone to the mall: Definitely!
Been on stage: Well, life's a big stage.. so, YES
Eaten sushi: Nope
Dyed your hair: Nope.. but am planning to, soon

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Oh YeS. since young with me bunch of cousins
Changed who you were to fit in: Not really, I don't. Don't see the point.

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married: Doesn't matter. Not planning to..

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: Hazel
Best hair colour: Brown
Short or long hair: Short

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago: Answering 'Layer Six'
1 hour ago: Watching 'Deathnote' DVD
4.5 hours ago: Chillin' out at Starbucks with bro
1 month ago: at home watching 'Deuce Bigalow'
1 year ago: Went up to Bukit Tinggi (Co. Trip). Showing off my cooking talent *ROTF*

Layer ELEVEN: Finish The Sentence
I love: (you. You love me, we are happy family~)
I feel: (like Cinderella) - from Memoirs of a Geisha (Parody)
I hate: (myself for loving you~)
I hide: the gayest calendar 06' somewhere out of my parents' reach
I miss: hugging someone from the back
I need: a boyfriend... well, at least I'm being honest

Layer TWELVE: Tag 5 people
Want meh!? 5 is so little. I tag all who stumble upon my blog, LOLz. But of course, no obligation -larr.. You wanna do mai do -lor, k? Nites! (Pheww.. $#@&()*#@!! finally over!!)
Revealing the Juni-Hito (Kimono)
Sunday, November 26, 2006

Revealing the Juni-Hito (Kimono)

Organizing your best friend's wedding - from head to toe. I gasped, at such odd idea. FYI, was watching the 'I do Diaries' this afternoon, hence the post (Well, its this show about one bride organizing the other bride's wedding and vice versa - What a horrific challenge. Once of a lifetime man! The day of your life ..... unless you divorce and re-marry again-lar, now thats different story).

While your friend's effort in making sure you're treated like a princess and to be given the best wedding you've ever dreamed of is what matters most, its actually quite worrying that it might not turn out to be the ideal reception that you, as the bride, hoped for. Moreover, its the most important day of your life and if it sucks, its literally 'a day you'd never forget'. Hahahaha. So I guess, aside from having ESP and pure luck, the vital component of the game is to really have faith in your friend's decision (and taste) and ... making sure your friend understands you well, and I mean, thoroughly well. OoooH, and the part about choosing the bride's gown. God damn.. what if the bride wants to be in a Qi-Pao and you, as the friend, chose for her a barbie-like Wedding gown? Thats so sad... rite, Oli, *wink *wink rite ? :p

Anyway, my point is... I had a lousy Saturday afternoon..
Not that I care, but...
Sunday, November 26, 2006

Not that I care, but...

24 November 2006

What a November this year! I know its only the 24th day now and its too early for me to say that. But I can't help it. Its been too shocking-ly puzzling! This happened, that happened, and now This happened. Everything moves at such a fast pace that I don't even have time to digest anything (not to mention *BREATH*) and, hoo-boy to make things worse, I'm part of every single shit, whether I like it or not - torn in between makes it even worrrsss*faint*ee.....

I don't have time to talk to Oli yet, I don't have the time to feel whats it like to have shifted downstair now, I don't have the time for my family, I don't have time for my friends and obviously recently, I don't have time for Qiqi either, Sotong even.

Whoooshh.. everything comes in one shot at full speed. Whoosshh... I was called in to discuss this....WHooooshh.. I was asked to discuss that.... WHoooshhh ... I am part of this.... WHoooshh... I have to do this... Woosh Woosh Woosh... I'm SO TIED UP (at work).

( In fact, while I was typing this, an assistant manager actually calls up - and guess what? I'd have to Whooosh back to the office early tomorrow to revise some cow dung. WOo weeee... )

Then there's also -

Whooshhhh... she wants to talk to me about him..........Whoooshh he wants to talk to me about her... Whoooshhhh.... she wants to talk to me about them... WHoooshhh he wants to talk to me about this.... Woosh Woosh Woosh... I'm SO TIED UP (on a personal level).

I would, if I could, sit down and have a proper conversation with each and everyone of you. I would, if could, work even faster so that I could juggle between jobs and please each and everyone of our clients possible and help lighten up you peeps' workload too. But the thing is I can't. I only have a pair of hands, a pair of ears, and a mouth to spare. Of course, I can multitask and do alot of things simultaneously, but that means I won't be throwing a 100% doing my job, or talking to you. Point-mana?

All this that has happened lately builds up to unneccesarry pressure. Technically speaking, I don't have to face all this, but I choose to, because I care. Because I know some of you needs my help. Because I know some of you have no choice. Because I know some of you have your own reasons. Question: How do I know so many things?

bCoz I'm the middle person of everything. And you guys shaped me up into such roles! Everything would just come to me whether I want to get involved or not. That's not very nice isn't it? Always in the loop of knowing 2 sides of a coin. That's WHY I'm feeling it now! You have no idea how fucked up my life has been within this month alone (more appropriately, this month in the office alone). Doing things that contradicts to my own will, saying things that contradicts to my own will, .... not to mention blogging out my own feelings also kena tiao ... all because ?

To keep everyone happy while at the same time trying to comfort myself that I still can be me -lor.. what else? To convince myself that things CAN and WILL work out well as long as I try to neutralise both parties and plant in them, a seed of patience and perseverance.

However, I can be so wrong. And I'm starting to see it already...

If I'm a colour, I'm so much a grey now.. *knock myself to the wall*
Head or Tail..
Friday, November 24, 2006

Head or Tail..

23 November 2006

When messages are not sent across.. You'd feel like an idiot. That's what I am or felt like at the moment. Its pathetic ...

So, anyway... Qiqi's question was, to take the 50% increment offered and work like a dog, or to stay with what she has currently and work a usual 9-6 job. I gave her every single reason to leave, reason not to leave, pros and cons and what-not (hey, just trying to stay neutral.... its HARD OKAY - esp. when I want her to stay badly). But I'll leave it up to her. It is, afterall her life.. and she should never stop for anyone.

But there's just something about her blog reader's comment that I couldn't really (fully) agree on. The Advise is to go for it and the statement reads-

'To go out and fight while you're still young'

And thats bcoz 50% increment is no doubt, a big lump sum. Who the fuck can resist such temptation the very first time you heard it?

Sure, it sounds logical that you should give in your best shot while you're young, up and running and what-not. Thats the best asset and attribute a young person can get - being energetic and always in the run to grab the best cheese in town.

HOWEVER, 'To go out and fight' doesn't mean you have to risk your life or sacrifice your time to reach your goal. Aren't you out and fighting in your current job then? Dare you say, thats not fighting? Dare you say those who're working a 9-6 job is not giving in their life and their fullest to please every single dumbass client/customers and try every possible way to polish their superior's shoe while striving to reach for their goal?

Some might say, "I know its tough and I'd work like a dog... But I don't have a choice. Its a good offer. I need the money". Oh so you need money, but you'd rather work till your organs felt apart and finally claim for medical expenses from the rich company who can throw you with lots of big bucks? Get real. EVERYTHING comes in 2 options. Its just about choosing the wise one. Don't give me stupid reason like 'I don't have a choice' and sounded like you'd die immediately if you don't take upon the challenge and so-called 'go out and fight' when in actual fact it means 'suicide'.

And some even said 'fuck the stress'. Yaa.. Yaa.. of course. Anyone with high EQ can fuck the stress alright. You can fuck your managers, supervisors and colleagues around up and down anyway you like it. But please, dear inconsiderate people... before you throw in any advice to other people, bear in mind that stress level differs from job to job. And just because you can cope with it in your job doesn't mean others can too in their job. And if you're not in the design field, it'd be even harder for you to imagine what STRESS really means. Saying things like that only makes you look selfish as you stand only in your own shoes without giving the person who needs help with a bigger picture of what he/she really needs to know.

Throwing aside the 'money' issue and 'stress' issue,

Sometimes, I just don't understand how people think (by the way, This is purely personal thoughts) - Waddya mean 'go out and fight while YOU ARE STILL YOUNG'? Like hullo? How much more old-fashioned can you get? So while you are still young, it means you should neglect every single recreational thing in life and focuses ONLY on your job? Oops sorry, I mean MAINLY on your job? So its really SO important that you think when you reach your 40s or 50s when its time to retire, you can enjoy life and catch back your life as a 20s?

No way my friend! You're only young once. You miss it now, you're not gonna catch it back 10 years down the road... 5 years even! Put this in mind : When you're old, remember NO one single healthcare or beauty product in the world can turn you back to the time when you're still called 'young' , and by that time, dont even bother saying you regret not doing this and that when you're 'young' - simply because you wanna 'go out and fight while you're still young'.

Unfuck the world! :)
A Little message
Thursday, November 23, 2006

A Little message

14 November 2006

自恋狂 by 陈奕

人人说我乖我说我很坏
可是听起来却很奇怪
人人说我帅我说我很呆
可是他们却说人人爱
不要在我的面前拍我的马屁
我没有什么好处可以给你
不要在我的面前说甜言蜜语
我会因此爱上自己
总觉得自恋无罪总觉得不输给谁
常对着镜子陶醉开心的无法入睡
总觉得世界很美难过也不翼而飞
其实爱上自己也没什么不对

测测你的自恋指数

分析结果

自恋指数50%左右 你的性格有点摇摆不定，是性情中人。你喜欢自己，也懂得欣赏别人，如果遇到不如自己的人你也不会当面表现出来，所以你的人际关系还不错，你的问题是在自己的内心，因为你总觉得自己的现状与能力不符，凭自己的本事应该有更好的待遇才对，这令你很苦恼。 忠告：尽量客观地看待自己的综合能力和职场环境，在利益关系很复杂的时候，不要先想到自己要多付出多少，太斤斤计较只会适得其反

TRUE -wor...
自恋
Tuesday, November 14, 2006

自恋

12 November 2006

A FEAST tonite! I truly anticipate dinner time when all of us would sit together, appreciate the good food and just pig out. Seeing that its only a few hours till dinner time, I cancelled all my plans to go out, and decided to be the usual 'guai guai zai' and stayed at home.

....but then the evening (dinner) was spoiled when some idiot who's in a bad mood decided to throw tantrums and went nuts, scolding everyone for no reason. So... let see... What was the reason I waited 1 whole day at home stupidly browsing the Internet again? For some lousy dinner where everyone is not enjoying themselves, where everyone has no mood. BRAVO. Thank you. Thank you very much. You made my(our) day! - AND YOU CAN PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED AFTER THAT - You memang the best-larr you. HEBAT skali.. knnccbtnshkl !! )@(#@*#@(#&$*%&^#$ If its not because you are my xxxxx I would've xxx you xxxx you until xxxxxxxx also cannot recognise I tell you. Hmph!!

and more of what happened lately :
  • The sei lou who called me 'babe' (I'm not a pig) called back after MONTHS. And he only called to ask how am I doing, then as usual-larr, tell me he'll call back later and *doot doot doot* (hang up the phone). WTF?
  • HE is seeing another girl while still attached with his gf. Technically nothing wrong. But I'll suggest to break up first before you start a new relationship. Fair to the girl, your girlfriend and to yourself and to everyone else involved.
  • Dumb blogger actually works again. oH, what joy!
  • Everyone mistaken me for the groom in a wedding dinner. BLIND people.
  • Someone complained that I look better in suit and tie than he does. WTF!?
  • Everyone thought the elder one is gay. HOW BLIND can you people get?
  • Some Aunty gives me the 'got-no-bright-future-look' when I introduce myself as a web designer. All these aunties mya thinking is that, the only type of designer who can make it big is INTERIOR designer. Josh Lim and Jonathan Cheng, you all 'sau pei' laaa.... (speaking of the latter one, accidentally found his profile in Fridae - what a poser, *look at that sei yan yong, u see u see* :p)
  • We'll be re-arranging our sitting position in the office soon. Hopefully the new fengshui brings me luck wakakakaka. I actually look forward to it. Geee...
Low EQ creature
Sunday, November 12, 2006

Low EQ creature

09 November 2006

Not sure if this post can make it through the dumb server, .... I anticipate a '100% published'

I have been... good. Busy, but good - it keeps me occupied.

However,

There's alot going on lately. I haven't got time to digest every single one of it. I don't have the time and the mood to analyse what went wrong, who's involved, when, why, how. Its not entirely negative stuffs - there's a few which really cheers me up - but heck, ya... alot of it are (still) SHITs.

Among them (good and bad),
  • Out of a sudden, he doesn't contact me anymore.. how (very) expected.
  • AND out of a sudden, HE's back in my life after disappearing for 2 months.
  • She wants to break up with the boyfriend.
  • SHE took my advice, pop the question and was rejected!?
  • A 1-day timeline to create a microsite - dateline: Tomorrow!?
  • Suddenly, the SIX of us seem so close to each other.
  • I actually enjoyed the trip, not fully but yaa...
  • ( SHITS, its 9pm now ) .....
I'll have to stop here because I'd be off to catch THE AMAZING RACE : ASIA now.. ciaoz. Blog can wait, TVshows can't wait!!
And then, AXN took over
Thursday, November 09, 2006

And then, AXN took over