15 October 2017

最初有你的記憶是,媽咪說寶,要是媽咪待會叫你打電話,你就趕快打給某某說媽咪要生弟弟(我忘了是打給爸或打給嬸嬸)然後就開始了記憶中就有你的出現。
回憶 1
Sunday, October 15, 2017

回憶 1

22 September 2017

9月17日2017  Jacob 铭浩的一岁生日

Kenny 叔叔,你的可爱侄儿刚过了他的第一个生日🎂🎁🎈你要保佑他哦。半年过去了,我们还是一样想念你,妈妈还是会舍不得你...你也要注意保佑她 😢 。我也适应不到没有你的世界 😭 三十年的时间一点也不长 。


ps.. 你也會認同這恐龍很可愛吧

Cheers,
Kenny C-
Jacob 铭浩的一岁生日
Friday, September 22, 2017

Jacob 铭浩的一岁生日

26 July 2017

你......到哪里了,有找到你理想的国度了吗?
三个月了……妈妈很坚强,宝宝长大了,嫂嫂有照顾妈妈和宝宝,你吾担心。

"想"已经不足已形容,心里有疼的感觉,妈妈应该也一样吧。

晚了,也未能再为你增添什么。
你就多点游走于我们的思念之间 。
哥哥想你了
Wednesday, July 26, 2017

哥哥想你了

25 March 2017

我還沒死。
但我想快了。
走不動(因水腫)。
呼吸也超困難的。
站著不行。
坐著也不行。
只能躺在床上。
微微的呼吸。
差不多了吧。
好想乾淨利落的「走」。

媽媽問「怕嗎?」。
沒什麼好怕的。
已選這條路了、
就沒什麼好怕的了。
就跟他憑了!
媽媽又問「有什麼東西想要說的嗎?」。
這問題怪怪的。
也沒什麼好說吧。
回頭想了一下。有啦。
我欠她老人家一句「對不起」。
但沒勇氣沒說出口。
媽媽照顧我照顧了一輩子。
面對著長期的病人、不簡單啊!
媽、「你幸苦了」。

看著哥哥。
有好多好多的話想要跟他講。
人在我面前、
我就不想講了。
不是討厭他。
是沒與他溝通的習慣。
總不知從哪裡說起。
對著我哥、
我很慚愧。
我今生欠他的實在有夠多。
他對我的好、對我的愛、
深深的體會到。
我卻無以回報。
哥、「謝謝你」。

我還在。
別想太多。
心情放輕鬆就好了。
無聊的感想(別太認真)
Saturday, March 25, 2017

無聊的感想(別太認真)

24 October 2016

And this marks the day when I finally let it all out. Every ounce of feeling and thoughts poured out as my family members listen in disbelief. Such an awkward evening - an emotional one - crying, denial, anger.. Now it is just a matter of accepting the truth and marching forward.

Good night folks.
My Decision
Monday, October 24, 2016

My Decision

17 September 2016

Meet Baby Jacob.

My nephew. Born this afternoon weighing at 7 pounds :) Cute. Grow up strong and healthy lil' fella!

Love you lots 
- Uncle Kenny -


可愛い赤ちゃん
Saturday, September 17, 2016

可愛い赤ちゃん

05 July 2016

If there's anything such as a daily mood data, mine would probably look like an electrocardiograph of a heart beat.. 

Up, down, spikes up, spikes down, up, down, interval...

Let's break these down:

[ Up ]
Waking up in the morning feeling fresh, with a good hot shower and able to have a hot cuppa before heading for work.

[ Down ]
Usually anxiety, caused by physical problems such difficulty in breathing, lack of energy and muscle aches. Other reason likely to be - unexpected load of incoming jobs in the office >.<

[ Spikes up ]
Happy moments when I listen to my favorite songs/ have silly talks with friends/ don't give a damn about what I eat (as opposed to restricting my protein intake).

[ Spikes down ]
Usually stress, caused by uncertainties and overthinking ie: thinking and magnifying unresolved problems esp. during shower/ night/ bed time. Yes, I tend to overthink a lot.. Other reason likely to be - bad conversation with people around/ argued unnecessarily. 

[ Interval ]
Zone out hours. An accumulative of sleeping time, tv time and point blank moments (usually happens after the overthinking process).

So many feels in a day. Am I complicating things or is that a norm? I hope I'm not going crazy anytime soon, or am I?

Beep... Beep...
Tuesday, July 05, 2016

Beep... Beep...

03 July 2016

I know very little of the movie 'Me Before You'. A love story, they said. Some cried.

Well, I cried a little.

*Spoilers ahead*

Not at the fact that Lou couldn't be with Will. But because Will (paralyzed) made a decision to end his life through the help of a Swiss-based suicidal organization. He made a choice for himself. A way that makes him feel like, better, being himself and in control.

My eyes were teary when Lou tries to make a bucket of wish list in hope to change Will's decision by making him appreciate his life, that life is worth living and be happy. It could work, but it's never gonna be the same. It's true what Will said, it could never feel the same, it's not the real him.

I can relate to Will's intention.

Really shouldn't have watched this. Mood level dropped by 90% at time of writing. *feeling down*
Just a little Down
Sunday, July 03, 2016

Just a little Down

02 July 2016

Jun.

We settled for 'Jun' . I grew tired of being a 'Kenny' - too much pressure and overly dramatic.

My name is Jun. Still me, just a different label.
My new name is
Saturday, July 02, 2016

My new name is

26 June 2016

First time ever in Thailand. First experience of Bangkok. No, I did not do anything a regular tourist would. It is to be a relaxing trip - or rather just a trip to visit a friend who happens to be staying there, thechaoskun.

I like it here. Can't tell because of the warm hospitality provided by chaoskun or simply because I just love the city. Maybe it's both. Either way, I'll definitely return to BKK.

What we did :

1) watched 7 movies over the span of 3 nights in BKK, 2 of which are at the local cinema. First time experiencing upper class cinema with bed - courtesy of chaoskun. Gotta love it !

2) malls along Sukhumvit. If I remember correctly, I was there at EmQuartier, Emporium, Central Embassy, Terminal 21 and Siam Paragon. And I now know where Mega Bangna, Erawan, GaySorn are. And knowing where to spot for them riding the BTS lol.

3) Pray at Wat Hua Lampong, and Erawan Shrine. And experiencing how it feels like donating MYR1k to a temple, thanks to rich Yunko (the Good Samaritan).

4) Nope, not (entirely) Thai food. But a variety of other cuisines. I called this the Swarm tour - the places chaoskun checked in to his Swarm on his usual days :D . We had Thai , HK style cafe, Taiwanese food, Chinese food, fast food ie. MOS burger. LMAO - who said u need to travel the globe to try different cuisines?

5) finally get to learn how to use : chai, yen, Neng geao, song geao, check bin, krub, Khob khun (Na) krub.. Etc etc simply Thai lol

oh NOW I remember why I like BKK - must be all those cute guys around XD . Darn it!
BKK Virgin
Sunday, June 26, 2016

BKK Virgin