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mental Torture..

What else can go wrong today? A REAL BIG 'sigh'

So what happened (again)? It was ONLY 11pm (still early), I couldn't sleep yet, so I took out my phone, started browsing through my phonebook and began to sms a friend of mine ... guess what? my friend replied.... but I don't quite like what I read. The conversation went something like this:

'Hey, long time no message you d, still alive?'
'Scared to message you'
'Why?'
'Dunno'
'K. Well, you don't have to if you don't want to...'

Scared to message me? Dunno why!? I don't bite, at least not through the phone or SMSes. That's a rude thing to say. And without a proper reason? Like... OUCH? Now what went wrong and what have I done to deserve all this shits?

Dumb fingers.. you should've just leave the mobile phone alone and head to sleep! Why am I torturing myself tonight with so many additional 'moves' that I shouldn't have taken? A simple SMS and it aches me now in the heart. This is bad. I really could use someone's shoulder now. ANYONE!

Maybe I'm oversensitive. Maybe I over-reacted a lil'. But that kinda response sure hurts. For someone I haven't been catching up with for quite a long time and that's what I get? Sheesh.. man.. I really should just fuck myself to sleep than to have my itchy fingers laid upon the keypads of my mobile phone.

* The conversation doesn't end there. There's still a few couple of 'how have you been lately' kinda lines that follows. But that's about it. Nothing more (not to mention I'm already feeling moody.. so I ended the conversation just like that). That's 'cold', but I reckon' thats the best move I've made today. Yah... end -period-