30 January 2007

So I went off to watch TV and when I got back to my PC, I saw something on my MSN which got me laughing. Its not funny, but I laughed because its .. weird. You know how when something turns out unexpectedly, you'd go 'Oh my gaWd!' - the kind that comes with an odd facial expression on your face? Yeah, those!

Srenae : So are you gonna tell me his name or not?
Moth :
His name is...
Srenae :
Wait a minute, don't tell me his name is Jeffrey.
Moth : (paused, *gasped*)... Uhh... His name is Jeff, not sure if its short for Jeffrey...
Srenae : Oh, okay.. just asking cuz' I happen to know a Jeffrey. He is abit overweight though, is Jeff overweight as well?
Moth : Uhh.. Ya... Jeff is fat..
Srenae : Fat, Wear glasses, and what else.. quite fair.. is Jeff fair?
Moth : (mumble mumble)... uhmm..hmm, he wear glasses too. Fair or not ar.. Hard to define-ler. Fair laa, but ... hard to judge rite?
Srenae : Hm, ya.. true. Its probably the Jeffrey I know lolz
*jokingly*
Moth : Aiyaa.. There's heaps of people out there whose name is Jeff/Jeffrey and is fat, wear glasses and fair wan-larr...
Srenae : True also, but you never know, small world..(blah blah yada yada..)

Not trying to relate anything here, but just find it funny *cough cough *CHOKE* cause' I just saw his MSN nick changed from Jeff to Jeffrey .. LMAO!! Freaky~ Yaa, I know I know - the probability is like 1/1000, but thats not the point. The point is.. its ironic - to have someone telling you what you'd be seeing in the near future (or so I'd like to put it in that sense :p Sei San Poh Srenae-ar...)

By the way, may I introduce to all you readers out there..(drum roll) : THIS is the San Poh - MaDamn Biatch Srenae... scary hor? *damn, she's got the powerful witch look (yaa, I reckon' she looks more like a ghost too). If you wanna consult her for some advice, forget it.. She only do it FOR me...

MaDamn sure likes to pose!
So cute-hor..wanna play peek-a-BOO somemore

......

..... hor MaDamn..?
the Last Autumn Witch..
Tuesday, January 30, 2007

the Last Autumn Witch..

29 January 2007

Only 3 working days this week!! 1 down, 2 more to go. Then its 4 days worth of HOLIDAY! aHiaks aHiaks!! I'll be busy datings with lots and lots of shopping, going for movies maybe and YaY.. time for haircut and hairdye Again (I'm going after super light hazel brown, highlight..er.. tak tau lagi)!! LOLz.. Yup, me love spending money - on things NOT necessarily practical but which would cheer me up.. I'm beginning to believe that chinese palm reading thingy about the (width of the) gaps between your fingers commensurate with the amount of money you'd spend in your life. My my.. look at the gap between my index and middle finger..tsk tsk tsk XD No wonder laa can't save ka-ching$

By the way, DeathNote 2 is here, FINALLY! I wanna watch it so badly - although Mr.Liar and da gurlfren ter-accidentally somehow in a way so unpredictable TOLD me who was killed and what-not already..*hmph* - but who cares.. I am gonna stare still at 'L' again XD (sangat ada character mya .. character!~ :p).


Look at HIS expression, the hair, the fair skin,
THE WAY HE HOLDS THE LOLLIPOP!!!!..
wahh.. damn attractive..
*scream out loud* *faint* d..
- okay, I exaggerated..



AND guess wHAT? My latest target is here - Mika Nakashima's new single (見えない星). Don't think I'll be able to get it anywhere here in Malaysia yet.. but its alwasy D*wnl**d*bl* .. LOL XD Qiqi - *hint *hint -hor? Qiqi ... hor?? Haaa.. Mika-san... DAIsuki daa!!
a Boy and a Girl
Monday, January 29, 2007

a Boy and a Girl

I told someone lately that you gave me a different feeling. You are nice and all but I just couldn't seem to break the barrier and make myself comfortable with you. I needed someone who can spark up and lead a conversation.

Anyway, so yaa.. I was away during the weekend. If you'd ask me, Yes - haha, I do miss you (not much but yes). Honestly speaking, I look forward to your SMSes each time - because it feels 'sweet' - that someone is willing to share with you their daily stories.

But I am not sure if I should miss you. Something tells me, that I shouldn't - because I fear that you don't feel the same(anymore), because I fear I'd get myself dissapointed(again), because I fear all I yearn for now and from you isn't true.

Assumptions are vague and I know I shouldn't judge anything just yet, but let's just be honest - its not hard to sense that things are moving at a slow pace, almost stationary now. I doubt I'm wrong. So here I am, trying to take 1 step back(again) pretending to be 'okay' and what not, when I'm really .. not.

Its odd because I am the one who said, 'lets not expect anything out of this', but in a way, I myself am beginning to fall on my own trap. Silly me.

I've learnt my lesson once. I'm not gonna repeat the same mistake again. =)
Thats a fake smiley =)
Monday, January 29, 2007

Thats a fake smiley =)

23 January 2007

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I Wish You Love, Rachel Yamagata

そっと抱きしめていた . 夢で会いましょう
Cozy fire to keep who warm?
Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Cozy fire to keep who warm?

22 January 2007

Spoke to De. Mazda3 is excellent. I almost wanted to commit suicide today. I always thought I had a lousy webcam. I felt so much 'lighter' now. I enjoyed my 24 hours worth of test drive. There must be some short circuit somewhere. Obviously I am bloody wrong LOL. I don't care much about the outcome. The car can really Zoom-Zoom. Apparently, messages can never be sent through verbally these days. My webcam is not as 'blur' as I thought it is, and 'yun loi' it comes with a mic too! I must say the discussion is good, at least beneficial to me myself. Its the only red model imported from Japan. Email seems to be the KEY, how come no one tell me-hur? I can only dream something will work out in the end. But its just way too expensive. KILL ME! Its my first time using Webcam and Phone Call feature in MSN.. how 'jakun'. Patient..moth..Patient *sigh. Can see cannot eat *sigh. Everyday vomit blood..*sigh. Damn 'paiseh' admit sendiri major Interactive Media LMAO *sigh.
Instant (SigH) Update
Monday, January 22, 2007

Instant (SigH) Update

17 January 2007

Just realized I haven't laid my hands on creatives for the past few months. Either that, or there isn't enough time for me to sit down and conceptualize a design. No big deal, but definitely no small issue either. Its all about rushing to get things done, rushing for approval, impress the clients by meeting the strict dealine, and its considered a good job done at the end of the day.

But thats not what I aimed for.

I have no doubt about my personal work performance. Unless I said 'no', I would most likely get things done the way its supposed to be done and on time. But with each so called 'good-job-done' lately, I noticed there's a trait. I don't really like my work. I don't enjoy the execution process. Its not the project that I dislike, its the way I choose to execute it.

Time constrain leads to reduce quality of work - To speed things up recently / To loosen up the tight schedule, its all about 'plunk in it . wrap it up . done' - to the certain extent, I don't really feel like calling it my portfolio. How... very embarassing, seriously! For someone with 2.5 years of experience? THESE kinda work quality? Aww.. c'Mon..

Now I know that is a very unhealthy way of doing my job. I would constantly remind myself not to repeat the same darn mistake again. But Heck, when deadline becomes deadlineS, its hard NOT to 'plunk in it . wrap it up . done' - hassle free and still manage to keep the client happy. Sounds like we've got nothing to lose eh?

How WRONG*. How very very wrong.
Morally wrong.
Ethically wrong.
Professionally wrong.

There's no QA. There's no QC.

Most of the people would go - "Aiyaa.. well, thats what they get within such short notice and allocated timeline-lar. Very good already laa" . And there you go, Passed with Credits (uhh, arguably correct)

But does it really work that way? Frankly speaking, I don't feel good at all. It sucks when you're pushing certain designs to LIVE for the sake of publishing it - and you know you haven't throw in your best effort to beautify that baby of yours. Simply 'unprofessional' - Yep, thats how I am beginning to see myself these days.

The funny thing is, no one said a single word about it. Some even complimented it. Good job done? Even I myself would have to think twice before acknowledging and 'humbly' receiving the credits given to me.

Because? Its not a good job done...
Because? Lack of details...
Because? Lack of QC...
Because? Lack of time...
Because? Short notices...
Because? Inefficiency...

*But having said all that, I'm not saying its always wrong to do things the 'shortcut' way. When given time and proper direction, 'shortcut' is just another way to ease the entire execution process. You can still produce a lovely job-gehh.... Just like how you would CTRL+C / CTRL+V to copy / paste certain things on your PC - convenient eh?

Our goals and perceptions are different. I already have my answer - I don't like the way it is now - deadlines after deadlines, multiple deadlines in a day, I felt pressured as the day goes by. Unnecessary tension which could've been prevented with proper (and realistic) timeline and proper task delegation.

What say you?

Do share your thoughts. Don't take things too personally-ya. Also, correct me if I'm wrong. I need to learn too..
My current concern
Wednesday, January 17, 2007

My current concern

07 January 2007

I've been chatting in Japanese with some of my Online friends lately. I always thought my Nihongo had gone down the drain. But apparently *surprised look*, I recalled most of my vocabs, grammars and words. For someone who had only took 1 semester of Jap class in university, my friend said I'm doing quite well. What an ego-boost. I felt terribly excited - I can finally put what I've learnt to practical use. Seeing them communicate in Nihongo makes me want to further pursue the language. I can't help but imagine how good it'd be, if I can master the language and converse in Nihongo - I don't know why either. I Like Nihongo. I've always wanted to learn Nihongo - but can never find the time, the place and most importantly, the ka-ching $ ...

And then irony strikes when my cousin brought her Japanese friend over for dinner tonight. Its like... out of a sudden, Nippon (as a whole) seems to be connecting to me. How bizzarre hahaha. Its beginning to look like a hint - that I should improvise and further study Nihongo.

My cousin told her Jap friend that I speak abit of Jap. Immediately The the Jap friend asked, 'You speak Japanese?', and I go 'aah!..chotto dake desu (a little bit only)' *shy* It feels nice to be able to speak a foreign language - and most importantly to make him (the Jap fella) feels at 'home'.

So I asked my friend for recommendation on Language centers where I can pick up Nihongo kurasu. He recommended ICLS. I've asked about ICLS before (2 years back) but as usual, my excuse for not applying revolves around ... time and money. But then, *SURPRISED* when I check out the website this time round, I realized they have a branch in DU ! - Near where I work ~ My office is just like.. around the corner~ How convenient is that!?

Oh shoots... I know I must do SOMETHING already hahaha.

So there I go.. requested for a course schedule. Awaiting for an email from ICLS. Butthen... I haven't laid me hands on books for such a long time and exams were like ... what is exam?? So, I'm abit worried about that. Cause' it takes more than just an interest and passion for the language. Like I told my online friend (who is hoping I'll take it up), No promises yet. But I'll see what I can do :)

Where there's a will , there's a way.

*But I'm lacking strong willpower*
Yo NihonGo~
Sunday, January 07, 2007

Yo NihonGo~

05 January 2007

TVs, Movies, Musics, Shops, Animes, Mangas, Yogas .. thats about what I can wrap up as things I do when I'm free...(aside from *shy* you know, I know larr *shy*). Remarks I get -

"Ohh, so you're the homely type eh?" ...
"Ah, the nice quiet type eh?" ....
"So 'guai' huh, you don't go clubbing eh? " ...

No. I don't have anything against such remarks. Its true.. I tend to be abit 'home-ly'. But how does one being 'homely' has got to do OR connects with being 'nice', 'quiet', and/or 'guai' ? I don't think its FAIR and its definitely NOT a good reason to label me kind as 'goody'goody' guai-guai-zai' for I am not (completely) one myself ... *ahem* just being honest*.

Staying at home jau equals to 'guai' gaa laa ? Shallow thinking dou sei... :pPpPppppPPp
a Nice Slut..
Friday, January 05, 2007

a Nice Slut..

Going out for dinner with Mr. Impatient can be uncool AND .... uncool.

i) rule A - the place has got to be NEAR (it means you won't 'feel' as though you've sat in the car for more than 30 minutes). rule B - the distance from the car to the table has to be taken into consideration. (which means no more than 30 steps away or 'feel' like 100 steps away).

ii) I'm indecisive. He's indecisive. and no one can make up their mind what's for dinner and WHERE - which is bad cause' it feels damn weird with your hands on the steering wheel and not knowing where to go...

iii) He, who said "anything, up to you. you drive, you make the call" usually doesn't quite mean it. He will have dozen of reasons to ban your suggestion... in the end, guess who made the call?

iv) its RUSH-RUSH : Mr. Impatient doesnt like to wait. So you won't have enough time to go through the menu, read the description and eenie-mini-mynee-moe. You are required to *SNAP* and order ASAP... don't you even dare let the waiter/waitress wait for more than 30 seconds...

And thats when I simply choose my food and not enjoying it in the end. Come to think of it, my 1 hour lunch during working hours are far better - at least I get to sLOwly choose what I want...

v) its MORE RUSH-RUSH : You won't have time to finish your last sip of chinese tea (or any drinks for that matter) cause' when Mr. Impatient is done with his food, he's on 'Let's Go' mode.

Already sibeh rush at work. Go out dinner STILL have to rush. Why must make my life so gancheong-larr... *sigh.. I think, soon I'll forget how to slow down.

vi) Mr. Impatient loves to stuff you with food, whether you like it or not. To say 'no' is considered super duper rude.

Situation 1
Mr. I : "I can't finish this fish, nah, give you half"
Me : "Noo... dunwant!"
Mr. I : "Eat-lar... eat more"
Me : "............(I don't like fish gehh lor)"

Situation 2
Mr. I : "I want this, this and this, this one too, and that too"
Me : "Cannot finish laa.. so many. Enough lor"
Mr. I : "Can laa.. you around mar .. you can eat"
Me : "............(I'm on diet gehh lor)"

Situation 3
Mr. I : "I don't want this already"
*SPLAT the remaining food onto my plate*
Me : "............(knnccbmchtnshkchkl)"

-Speechless-
Enjoy your food, sir..
Friday, January 05, 2007

Enjoy your food, sir..

03 January 2007

Dear Bubblegumpop,

Don't cry.. silly girl. It aches to see my friend in tears. Remember this. We're here. We will be here. We'll be here when you need us, We'll be here waiting for you. Doesn't matter if we don't see each other everyday or the fact that we're not by your side. You know its just a phone call away. And lets not forget MSN and emails... (ahem, preferably AFTER working hours) :)

Do keep the 2 weeks worth of memories short, simple and sweet. Will miss you soon. Haha.. And oh, 'Just' a suggestion - hope to see more colours in your wardrobe next time (NO, bras doesn't count) :p

By the way, my reversed five of cups reads the following -

"Your emotional state has turned to sorrow as a result of this disappointment. You feel as if your dreams have been dashed and broken."

Yes, my question to your tarot cards has got to do with the one in McD.
Heartache is true..
Au Revoir Mate!~
Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Au Revoir Mate!~

01 January 2007

Let me just make quick wish.

.........(mumble mumble)........
...........................
.........(blaa blaa blaa)........
.....................................
.................(and yada yada)

k. Done.

You have my words people. 2007 is gonna be FUN! OoooH Ahhh I can feel it already.

I just had a flat tyre! BAH~*#@$!(#$!!!
Hello there, 2007. Huh-Lo there..
Monday, January 01, 2007

Hello there, 2007. Huh-Lo there..